First of all, late nights are awesome! They are silent, peaceful, and I feel like I have the entire world to myself.
Nowadays I have been going to the bed late. Tonite is one of them. I am not worried about not getting up on time. I am not sure whether it is true that as we age, we need less sleep? I always thought it was because of reduced amount of exercise maybe? Considering my almost the same level of exercise over the days or months, i do not think lack of exercise has anything to do with my reduced need of sleep. There must be another reason.
This morning, I woke up right on time to catch the bus, but rather took the cab. Why?
I do not have good mood in the mornings. This morning I woke up particularly pissed. I remembered (and why did I do that?) that one of my “good” friends had joked and almost insulted me about a treat basket I sent her all they way from Canada to USA when she got married. That was maybe 8 years ago. That is what she said about the chocolate in the basket; “You know how much I love chocolate; I even ate that chocolate”.
Well, I am not sorry that I did not send you the finest chocolate ever. I was almost penniless at that time and it cost me more than 2 weeks of allowance. 2 weeks.. yet, I sent it to you to celebrate your beautiful day.
No more gifts for you my friend – until you start appreciating people’s efforts and good wishes for you. Or at least until you zip it.
And this thought does not make me feel good, either; I prefer to have good wishes, good thoughts, gratefulness….
I am pissed at my friend once more.
I am surprised how mean and inconsiderate people can be and how we can keep them in our lives. In my case, my friend turned out to be a solid one, but she certainly is not shy to insult me as she pleases.
Again, I am pissed..
Deep breath.. All is well.. Right now I have everything and everyone I need and want. Right now I am at peace….
When I get up in the morning, I will be grateful for being alive, for welcoming another beautiful day full of life-experiences and opportunities, and hopefully will do or think something to make myself feel good.
Goodnight everyone 🙂