I had made this decision many times before but I guess lately I had become okay with the status quo because of the stability of my job here.
My decision is to leave here and move somewhere else.
I am tired of rowing against the current, which is ignorant and insensitive to the efforts I put in.
This current would be my job environment.
I have a great job but I also time to time talk about the stress it creates on me and its challenges. I also rant about lack of diversity and not being from here (thus being stereotyped or discriminated) time to time.
Hence, 2 + 2 and I decided it is not right to continue a life somewhere that does not excite me.
More importantly, it is not right to not put an effort to enrich and make my life better.
It is not right to live and work somewhere where people still think less of me because I am not from here. Even though I do so well. But who cares about the quality and quantity of the work I do while I am (according to them) less worthy?
Of course I have triggers. My dad’s death two weeks ago (sometimes, I cannot believe in this…) and how he would like me to be happy. How I resented about focusing so much of work and neglecting my family and myself. And an event here today about work which told me once more how superficial a lot of things here are and no matter what I am capable of or proposing, it would not go thru and make a positive difference in people’s life. So what is all of these struggle, boredom, hard-work, and efforts are for?
Time for me to care about myself and make myself a priority. Not the job. Not this place and this job, no matter how much I love working.
Gotta start looking for jobs somewhere.
I am kind of thinking that it would be better for me if I just give a resignation notice. I believe I can give a notice upto a year before. I am crazy (or fed up) enough to do this, yet I should not do this before I find another job. After all, I have a good salary here…
Boy, I so hope that I will not chicken out and over turn this decision once more. I must put the effort to move somewhere else, hopefully a much better, warmer, diverse, and reasonable place.
Wish me luck