After 5 weeks of being away, I am back!
I sure have had the most interesting vacation ever (vacation = going to my homeland to visit my family).
There were many nice things that I have experienced during my vacation; like seeing family members and friends.
Being away from my everyday routine and the often-times stressful work was an exceptional plus.
I swam at the sea, got lots of sunlight, ate the freshest fruits and veggies, shopped for nice stuff, and made important realizations and decisions for future that may make things better.
I am refreshed and energized, and as usual I have my resolutions in place to work on, such as to lose weight and to make a better, more social, and meaningful life out of my usual routine-based, work-focused, and one-person life (these two resolutions are recurring themes that I was not able to achieve yet… so wish me luck 🙂 ).
Yet, interesting does not necessarily mean that I have had a beautiful, happy, and joyful time during my vacation. On the contrary…
For example, at the beginning of the vacation, I have experienced emotions that sometime reached to a level very close to hate (which is very unusual for me….). Hate is a very bad feeling – I do not want to feel it. Like ever.
I made many trips to other cities and had to spend time with some annoying people, which made me physically drained and emotionally agitated.
I made mistakes and emotionally hurt some good people.
And, later through the end of my vacation, there were historical and very negative external events developing and making me realize that none of the ridiculously non-essential issues (that made me feel hate-like emotions or break good people’s hearts – what was I thinking?????) in fact should matter in life or occupy my mind/heart….
I hope I am better than before because of these experiences.
Sometimes life feels like a cheap toy to me: it is awesome one minute and the next moment, it does not mind breaking in front of my eyes. It is as if it requires extreme care, intuition, relaxation, communication, consideration, intention, and luck all the time. That is tiring….
Thankfully, it is also miraculous, beautiful, and awesome the other times……
I hope all of you have had a great summer and great experiences, too.
I have not read all the posts posted while I was away by those bloggers I follow, but I know that some of you have had bad news recently and are keeping their positive attitudes towards life’s hurdles (Go Team Red Phoenix Go! ).
Sending positive vibes to all of you! 🙂