It is all good, I promise.
Skip the 1st part and scroll down to the second half should you prefer not to hear about the drama.
(honestly, I too would like to leave this drama behind…).
My mom was very upset that I returned Jamie the cat back. My sister and my brother too. They highly recommended me take it back.
Did I not want it?
With each day I have been feeling a little bit better, but I am still emotional about that innocent, mystical live-being.
Anyways, my mom forced (!) me to go back to the shelter. And I did. Not to take him back, but to inquire what would happen to him, and if he was to be killed, to re-adopt him (I thought what I could offer him would be better than death for this young, lovely cat). They assured me again that he would not be killed unless he has behavioral problems or gets sick. There were cats that have been living there for 3 years 🙂
I could not completely believe, but got happy anyhow! 🙂 Jamie will not die because of me and he has got a lot of opportunities to be adopted 🙂
Why am I telling you these?
Not to continue with my recent drama, but to note something that I realized.
By chance, I saw my friend at the shelter; she is a regular there. She told me one thing that I cannot forget.
She said Jamie was not the right cat for me.
I was still defensive and said I was not the right owner for him.
Now I am thinking; she was right. It felt right. Jamie the cat and I were not right for each other. if it was so, we would be happy and comfortable together.
In the past too I have had experiences like this when I was not 100% sure and got conflicted about whether or not to take a step (like adopting Jamie).
In the future I hope to remember this: if I find myself stretching too much for someone/something, and if I am not 100% comfortable, I will stop myself and walk away.
While there is room for development in all of us, if it is too much of a concern around it, it is best to leave the love behind. There will always be others.
And long-live the friends 🙂
And if i want to help animals, then I better donate to shelters and stop eating them for sometime…