How are your relationship with your family?
It is clear from my many posts that mine is not great.
I love my family; sister and mom particularly, and to some degree, my brother. But they drive me crazy with their expectations and non-appreciation.
I love my mom, though. She is the only person who treated me well most. I think everyone else broke my heart more than enough. But not my mom. She is an angel.
My sister and I have always had a rocky relationship. We are very different, see. We got close when she got sick like 10 years ago. We have been getting distant again recently. She also has clinical depression, so I try not to care about her attitude. But it is hard sometimes.
My brother…. I could never liked my brother as a person, but I do like him because he is my brother. Do you know what I mean? My brother was not one of those that you would look up to while you are growing up. It was the opposite. I remember him as someone hurtful. I dislike him mostly now because of the way he exaggerates everything. I am also suspicious that he feeds things about me to my mom and sister. Like how much money I make and should be sharing with them, etc. As if I am under any obligation to give money to anyone. Especially when I need it myself. This is how they always have treated me like. It made me feel guilty for so long. I am sick of this.
I hate money getting in between me and the people who are most important to me.
I want my money to myself, honestly.
I want my life being free from them.
I want to spend my vacation time the way I want (I always go visit them).
I did not call them today. I do not want to next week, either.
And, starting next year I want to visit them only once every two years or something.
I want to visit south America, North European countries. I want to use my money to have a better quality of life for myself (rather than around 4K/year of money spent to visit them).
I want freedom from my family.
It is so conflicting. BUT it is necessary.