It sounds odd, but there are benefits to this fatal pandemic.
Our lives have been interrupted and changed. We do not know what the future will bring, and whether we and everyone else we care about will survive this virus.
We do not know whether we can keep our jobs and mortgages, and put food on the table, and if so, for how long.
We do not know.
Every morning I get up with one thought on my mind – that we are in fact going through a disaster. Some of us, like me, are experiencing it mild, some others are experiencing with daily death and suffering around them.
It is a very depressing and anxiety-creating situation. But, I think I am also good at keeping myself busy and pretending that nothing is happening. This must have kept me sane so far.
I feel horrible writing these words, but this pandemic has been good to me. I realized that I have a high quality of life in my personal life, but low quality of work life.
While I knew that I had a stressful job, I did not know that my life outside of it was a blessing!!!
There are things at work that I fully dread and would love to get rid of, like some roles that drain me but bring me little or no recognition or benefit in return. There are some colleagues who are the worst and I would not like to see or interact with them anymore. This is in fact a great time for me to shake shit out of my shoulder.
It is also strange to be happy that I am not going home this year (my flight has been canceled). I am not feeling bad about this. I will enjoy staying here and experiencing summer. The good weather. The peaceful working from home order. I will. I want to.