holidays plans

It is mid December already 🙂

I must be excited about the holiday time-off, but I am not there yet. I have some work to complete before the holidays so that I can take a rest and then start the new year with a fresh feeling. I have 9 more days before the holidays, so I feel like I must speed up. Yet, Murphy’s law – while some stuff are doing well, others are not. So here is to a roller-coaster type of day 🙂

But, I take it easy. This is my new approach to life’s hurdles. There is a lesson to be learnt from everything. Perhaps this year’s lesson to me is to accept the hurdles and delays, and try anyhow. Ok.


These being said, I am looking forward to having some “me time” during the holidays. I just declined a social and I am likely gonna decline some others too. I remember last years that when I attended the socials, I had hardly any time left for myself. This year more than ever, I want to slow down and I want to reflect and decide on new aims.

Some of my plans are the usual:

I will clean the house really well and declutter! It is gonna be awesome.

I may shop, trousers particularly, by taking advantage of the sales.

I may finally finish the place mat I started to sew 3 months ago.

I may reflect on life, my wishes, and needs, and the future.

Most importantly, I want to evaluate the past year (this blog is a good resource to see what I have experienced or thought). I always liked this exercise! How did I develop, personally and professionally? What did I accomplish and what did I fail? What did I learn? What can I do differently? How did I take the change (e.g. changes in my sleep pattern) and how did this change me?

All very exciting questions! 🙂

 

 

 

somethings make your time worth it

It is a peaceful Saturday night – I am enjoying it widely 🙂

I woke up early again. I was talking to a colleague of mine about the sleep situation today. They have little sleep every night, and as such are almost exhausted. I can see the tiredness in their eyes and face. I realized once again how lucky I was – even though I am not able to easily go back to sleep once I am awake, at least I can get deep sleep for 5-7 hours per night. I am quite refreshed when I wake up, not tired or exhausted. My only issue is the thoughts that pass thru my mind that stress me. That is all. I am on the lucky side when compared to many of my colleagues. I am glad that I had this conversation today with my colleague.

I have seen many of my colleagues today as there was an organizational event that required our contributions. I was happy to be there and take part in the event. I have a similar event to attend tomorrow, but I am not worried about it. It is gonna be fun and I will have a chance to wind down both during the event and later at home. It feels good to be doing these as I am proud of my contributions and what positive difference I can make to my organization. It is well worth my time 🙂

Have I mentioned that I have become interested in online courses and am enjoying taking courses on topics that interest me professionally? 🙂 Yup – my new hobby 🙂 I have come across information about a class on social media, which clicked with me and in a split second, I enrolled into the class. I have started in September and I am currently finishing up my second course. Nothing too detailed or completely distant to my current level of knowledge, but in terms of case studies, opportunity to discuss with other attendees, and providing a frame for knowledge and filling the gaps, I find the online courses quite beneficial and enjoyable for my taste. I am all about free courses for now and making sure that I will not be abused financially by some random site. If you are interested in courses/workshops offered by online resources, libraries, or universities, I highly recommend you to check them up. Learning is a highly exciting activity 🙂

I also would like to mention how much I adore my natural salt & pepper hair now 🙂 It has been over a year of adventure that I decided to transit to my natural hair. Time to time I am still saddened by the gray patches, but then it is such a shinny, healthy hair that I fall in love with it a few minutes later 🙂 I also incredibly happy that I do not need to dye or cover my roots, and I am free of the sadness that came from seeing the gray roots a week or two after I dyed my hair in the past. I am free….. The first up to 4-7 months were quite challenging, but I am almost there. I just need to get it cut to get rid of my highlights that are now limited to the ends of my hair. Cannot wait 🙂

This is the short account of what went thru my mind today.

Talk to you later, my friends. Have a great Sunday!

 

 

 

9 days to holidays and reflections on finances

Counting down the days till holidays 🙂

I started cleaning my office yesterday, my traditional activity before the holidays. I am 1/3 done and would love to complete it sometime soon. Maybe tomorrow, maybe Friday, but maybe next week. But I will be doing it 🙂

I also started thinking about my budget and life-style for the next year. I can see that unless I become more careful I may not be able to save what I want to save. Last year has been a great teacher for me in terms of finances and my own attitude. 

I learnt that:

1. if I do extreme budgeting I get unhappy and all I think about is spending money. I know that because I tried a pantry challenge or something early in 2017 and restricting my shopping experience was unpleasant and expensive :)))) So I should not restrict my already tight budget

2. Work stress makes me feel like I am entitled to make unnecessary expenses, such as on junk food. This is very silly and I need to work on this

3. I need both short-term and long-term financial goals. My overall calculations are for the entire year, but I would feel much better if I can have a soon-to-be-completed goal so that I can keep my eye on it, strive for it, and eventually feel the satisfaction of completing it. I think I will have to work on this idea to keep me motivated. After all, we can aim all we want but unless it is realistic or reachable, we will lose our hope first and then the intention to reach the goal.

4. While I can spend on junk food and rationalize it, I also continue not to over-spend on grocery or other things, which is strange… This must tell me something. Why do I turn blind to unnecessary expenses, which are often much more than my grocery bill? if I can figure this out, I can figure out many other things…

5. I continue to be not cheap when it comes to socials. I notice that many people do not get that generous with me when I host them, so I want to opt for a smaller thing to take with me to socials; a loaf of bread, a jar of pickle, a baked goods are good options.

6. I stopped picking my colleagues’ bills when we go out together, which is awesome.

7. I still treat my team members with lunches or so time to time; this was 2-4 times a year so far. I think I will make it once year now. I will have to really work on this because I really like celebrating their accomplishments. 

8. It is great to be taking advantage of the sales for items, such as clothes, required each year. This occurs often during October-December. I think one thing I should aim for is to save this money way advance; whether it is thru my fun funds or savings from the expenses that I could easily make but do not (like picking up others’ bills). 

9. Talking about the fun funds, I have never been clear about how to use them last year (fun funds are the money left out of my weekly allowance). I think it is time that I handle this better. I think this year I will replace the term “fun funds” with “weekly savings” and I will use these savings as mortgage pre-payments.

10. I will be on shopping freeze for trousers and jackets this year; the only place to shop for blouses/shirts will be thrift stores. I will continue to buy items that are supposed to be personal, like socks, from regular stores.

– to be continued –

 

hardship teaches good lessons

They say that difficult things happen and we make mistakes to learn and develop. 

While I do not enjoy going thru a hard time on things related to my job right now, I also learn. 

Today I realized that:

  1. Me resigning from my position is a silly decision.
  2. I am too much focused on protecting my own and my ally’s/team’s rights that sometime i cannot see the other sides.
  3. I am tired and overwhelmed and my mistake rate is increased as a result.
  4. I must not undertake critical tasks right now, but I have to because of some deadlines. I must do whatever I can to make sure my mind is clear.
  5. Not everything will go ahead as I plan, think, or wish for. So I better get ready for failure as well.
  6. Whatever happens, this is a transition and there will be better days to come.
  7. I will change, the way I think or function at work will too, after all of these, but I will keep going.
  8. I will re-visit the idea of resignation in 2 years, or if something catastrophic happens that cannot be otherwise fixed. But not right now.
  9. I must focus on positive possibilities and positive outcomes so that I can move in such a direction. The more I think about resignation, the more I find myself subconsciously moving in that direction. This is self-sabotaging at best. This is silly.
  10. There will be better days and times to come. There will be positive outcomes. I may not know what they are now, but it has always been so. For example; at work there was a big project that I wanted to undertake and lead. It did not happen and it hurt. Last week we learnt that those who have such kind of projects would have to deal with a much bigger problem than I had anticipated. It is not something that I could easily handle, so I came to think that I was in fact lucky to not have this project that I wanted so much.
  11. In the last few years there has been things at work that did not come to a point that I wished them. The project I mentioned above is one of them. But, is that not true that there is a destiny for me and these are all helping shape it? Maybe I will come up with a better idea? Maybe a better project? Maybe I will in fact quit my profession at one point of my life, but maybe this will be a retirement, not a resignation? Maybe I will find a job all of a sudden and without much of an effort, and take it as an opportunity? Maybe these are all normal thoughts of someone who is under too much stress? Maybe whatever will happen will be better for me on the long run. I should have some faith in future and life. I should have patience. I should relax and be less jumpy. I should and will take one day at a time. I should embrace the opportunities and failures alike. Where is my grace? One can be graceful without quitting early, right?
  12. I must reflect on the goodness in life and around me more. Life is full of great things and people!
  13. I must take a break from all of these sometime soon. Luckily I have a short trip to Europe in a couple of weeks. It will give me some fresh air and mental break. 

is there something called being desensitized to adversity?

So much is going on, and a lot of these are going in a direction that I wish they did not. Under different conditions, even upon one such event, I would be pulling my hair and stomping my feet. But not anymore.

I think I passed the initial aggravation with the first adversity and now am going through the continuous agitation and issues with a calmer head. How is that even possible?

One thought that keeps popping on my mind is that “eventually something better will come up“.  Yes, the things are not moving well, and I have issue over issue to think, plan, and resolve, and yes some of these issues will not be resolved and I will not be able to make things that I wanted to happen. These are all related to work, by the way, which is very important for me but not as important as the well being of myself and the loved ones. This gives me serenity.

There is a saying that one door may be closed but the other may open after that. I love this phrase and keep believing in it. This requires a little bit more care, careful look and research of additional opportunities, but time after time I find myself ripping the opportunities after such hard times. The wisdom of age is priceless. I just wished I knew what to expect from the future. 

I am saddened, however, by all the efforts, emotions, and hardship endured during all of these hurdles. Darn transition from one failure to next opportunities is long, too. So my pain has not suffocated yet and brought me to the next level. But I am curious about what will come next and how these and I will shape my future work and possibly life conditions.

Learning about life, myself, my reactions, and my emotions is a continuous process, I see. 

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Tuesday already..

It is Tuesday already….The long weekends make the week quite short. A three day long weekend and a shorter week following it. What do you say? Double win! :))))

We have a great day today, which is supposed to chill down tomorrow. My windows are open. There is something nice about walking through the front of the windows and feeling the cool fresh air on your skin. All these things that I am grateful for during Summer 🙂 Add this list the ice cream and imagine how happy I can be 🙂

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I have some serious work to do within the next 3 months. This means I gotta organize myself well and use my time like a tiger. I must focus on this…. Doing what matters most. It is a challenge for me to do select things rather than everything in my list, but we all will see how this will go. Who knows? maybe I will do this 🙂

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In our interactions with a unit in my organization, we have been having some mis-communications and rejections only because of mis-understanding and lack of standards/clarity. I volunteered to work in that unit/committee with the hope of improving things and also my own understanding. I fear that they will not approve it, but if they do, then this will be awesome. You know I applied for a job last week with mixed feelings, and I wanted to note what I really like about my current job: this freedom to decide myself to undertake new things, and ability to learn new stuff is what make this job really unique and beneficial for my own development. Totally awesome! There is not any other job that can provide me with such a  great mental stimulation. It will be hard to leave this job.

Good to know! 🙂

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not picking the cheques anymore?

You know I have been on a budget to spend less and save more for my future, whether I do that to pay extra mortgage payments, to finance future house repairs (likely considering my house being an old one), to built an emergency fund (we all can need it anytime), to help family (they are important to me), or retirement (hey; I am important too).

And lately, you know that I got interested in sewing and have been saving extra to finance my new sewing machine, in addition to support my shopping plans for the holiday season.

You may also know that I like to be generous and pick up the cheques as dinners/cafes, if I am with friends or colleagues.

I came to a point that being a saver/conscious spender and being generous do not go well sometime. Sometime one has to choose one over the other.

Yesterday I have had two socials with the same people; a brunch and then a dinner. I offered to pay the bill of the brunch, but I was not let to. I am grateful for their kindness. Then later during the dinner I decided I did not want to pick up the bill. So, we got split cheques after a few awkward moments.

I felt cheap, I still somehow feel cheap, for not paying the entire bill, but it was the right thing to do.

One; I had no say in the choice of the diner (one of my friends yesterday made the reservation). It had one fixed menu. (by the way, that is quite strange… what if I do not feel like eating those?). Honestly I would love Asian cuisine much better and then it would worth every penny. So, strike one.

Two; it was an expensive restaurant. Do not get me wrong; it was a fine restaurant, food was interesting, and the service was excellent, but do I really need to pay around 80 bucks for a 5 course meal? I am here sacrificing from my weekend breakfast (that consists of a cup of coffee and one bagel) to help save for my sewing/holiday shopping needs, and then at one night I can spend 80 bucks? 80 bucks pay for 20 breakfast……That is a huge….The best choice is clear.

Three: as I was conscious of my money, I did not order extra meals/drinks like my friends did. Should I really pay for this?

Four: in the past I have picked cheques for both of my friends, so we should be fine.

So after this analysis, I am feeling better and I decided I might have been cheap but not unnecessarily. The question is; how am I going to continue making better choices in the future with other socials?

There will be some learning,  I guess 🙂

so it has been 2 years blogging…

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So it has been two years that I started this blog??

Wow!

Time has truly flied.

I started this blog to keep my mind busy with something new so that I could heal my heart break. I was not interested in neither writing nor reading blogs.

At first, of course…

Then, things have changed.

I started to be brave and enjoy putting in words whatever came to my mind. I wrote my first poetry here; often without editing or revising, and in my second language. A couple of them turned out to be good. Surprising…. I write my joy journal here. My humble lazy recipes. My daily ordeals and baking adventures. My struggles with issues, work, unhappiness, and loss of dead ones, to count a few. Over time, I opened more and more about myself, my inner world, and my life – I never thought I would in a virtual world. What a blessing and freeing opportunity.

I also started to enjoy reading others’ blogs and learning from them; the pain, love, excitement, and issues of people out there; I come to realize once more that we all were more or less the same. I thought and reflected a lot. I still do.

I met with wonderful people here; supportive, smart, sincere, genuine, and lovely. I found myself in a community – a virtual but nevertheless real community.

The recipes made my day; even though I did not like cooking. I sure tried many bread recipes posted here, though.

I did my most frequent decluttering activities, thanks to many bloggers here that inspired me with their efforts, plans, and wisdom.

I got many useful tips about budgeting, saving, and financial health. Some of them I implemented in my own financial life.

I learnt about others’ suffering, like sickness or treatment. I developed empathy as a result.

I learnt things that I had never thought before; like minimalism, homesteading.

I learnt about myself; not only by blogging but also by interacting with other fellow bloggers.

Blogging, in a sense, has changed me and my life next to my family, friends, unfortunate life events, and career.

I never thought it would.

I am mesmerized….

And hugely grateful….

random thoughts

I continue to think about life and death…. I kind of understand why we are ignoring our own and others mortality – thinking about death is very depressing. But this depression may as well help us to make the best of today and the relationships in our lives. So, give hugs to those you love; send messages to those you have not seen for sometime; love, forgive, and forget more, and hopefully, dislike less.

Life is supposed to be good – so let’s enjoy it by making it better for ourselves and everyone else; after all we are all connected. Somebody’s misfortune cannot make us happy, but somebody’s positivity can make us smile if we let so. Our choice.

The heavy weight of the thought of death of loved ones and the pain coming with it, I found myself first not working today; so in the morning after a meeting, I left my office to do some errands here and there. The change was very welcome and taking care of the stuff that have been hanging over my head for a couple of weeks felt satisfying. After these are done, I worked at home and started an important document, which to my surprise went really well. I am glad I was in the mental state to work efficiently and without thinking too much. After that of course I felt good again.

We need to feel good time to time. If I was to immerse myself into depression again, that would not be nice. I know what depression is and it is nothing to be taken lightly. That is why I am once more grateful for my job that keeps my mind busy and working. With each work done, with each focus on a different subject, my mind and soul get a chance to breathe.

My back feels better and sitting is not too much of a problem anymore. I credit the exercises my physiotherapist recommended. I do not like doing them – that I can assure you. But after each time I do them, I notice that my body feels better. I just need more motivation to do these exercises, that is all.

I did something nice this noon and bought myself a soup somewhere while going around to do my errands. I am glad I have done that; since yesterday morning I have not been eating much (which is very unusual for me). In the evening I have had a large salad, which I know has been very good for me. Whatever I do, I should not let my body go deprived of nutrition and energy.

On a separate note, my power bill has just arrived and looks like I was able to drop it a little bit this past month. Last month I have got a high amount that I think I had never seen before. I was not sure about the reason, but one thing I could think about was the home ventilation. I usually open the windows at the weekend to aerate my home. I think it is a very healthy habit and would recommend anyone. But I was not particularly paying attention to the heaters while doing this. So since last month, I started to lower the thermostats while the windows were open so that the heaters would not need to work harder to keep the temperature up. It made a difference; even though the change is not too big, I am rather happy to see that I am not having an unnecessarily high power bill this time.

Looks like there is no end to learning in this life, for which I am grateful 🙂

 

the good things that come after feedback

In my profession, feedback from others, persons we work with, train, or provide consultations have a huge impact on our performance dossiers as well as for our own development.

Some of the activities we are provided feedback for are not a part of our education or training (such as presentations), thus we only learn it by trial, failure, trial again. Some people are naturally gifted, yet for others it is along journey.

Presentations are tricky in the sense that the presenter is not only supposed to know things, but also assess the previous knowledge of the audience, build on top of it, attract their attention, clearly convey the message, and able to answer the questions the audience may have. The slides should be very clear and well organized, too.

Today, I have got a very positive feedback for one of my educational presentations. I am so happy and excited about this. Considering how hard it was to arrive this point for me, you can understand my excitement.

I have been giving educational presentations for 6 years now. As I have said it is not a part of my formal education and even though I liked talking about the things I know, clearly I was not as good as I thought I was; at the beginning I have got such negative comments that I was disappointed in myself, quite shaken, I had to forget what I thought I knew, and re-build myself as a presenter from scratch.

I made use of the written feedback I have got.

I consulted my colleagues.

I searched the internet and read material about effective presentations.

I had casual conversations with the audience and learnt one or two tips.

I reflected.

I spent hours on my slides.

I prepared extra material to be distributed during the presentation to enhance learning.

I added extra slides for information that may be useful to present should someone who is not familiar with the subject matter was curious.

Every time I did present; I had a hard look, contemplated, digested the feedback, put an effort.

Most importantly, I learnt to ask myself whether I would understand this presentation if I was an audience (I found this one particularly effective).

And, each year my performance as a presenter improved.

Especially in the last two years – the leap I have made is more than satisfactory. Now that I am consistently getting highly positive feedback means I really have some skills now work well, across many different audience.

So next time you have got a negative comment or feedback on your performance, take a breath and listen. Think. Evaluate. Re-build if you must. Get ideas and integrate them. Make it a priority for you to achieve. Try. And enjoy the pleasure coming out of your efforts.

cheers everyone 🙂

 

 

random thoughts

I believe it is around a year that I have started my blog here – I just surprised myself by remembering this.. A year.. Wow…

A year ago I was writing my first posts, not knowing what exactly this blog would be about. Not knowing what to expect to find. What to write. How or whether to respond to comments or how or whether to write comments on others’ posts.

A lot changed since then; I have evolved, so have my blog. It is pretty neat indeed.

Posts and bloggers I like to read have changed since then; mostly expanded. Sometimes I got to learn about new concepts, sometimes I just remembered, sometimes I knew about the topic but read the posts anyways – just to see the other point of views.

Sometimes I followed blogs first for some reason and then continued to read their posts about a variety of topics. Sometimes, I read a post first, something clicked, and then I followed the blogger. The reasons for choosing the blogs I follow (or unfollow) amuses me somehow.

One new concept I learnt about by reading posts here was “minimalism”. What an interesting concept that I can totally relate to. Boy, am I glad I learnt about it. I cannot think about another concept that was uniquely a blogging experience.

Other concepts I read in posts I knew before, but they have a great role in “reminding” me. Decluttering is one example. Reading the posts about it has been a very inspiring experience; I have done one of my biggest decluttering activity in years thanks to this experience. I must credit getting warm to the idea of thrifting and donating all bunch of stuff after I declutter to the thrifty stores to the posts I read here about decluttering.

Saving, budgeting, frugality, and conscious spending have been ongoing topics for me in the last 5-6 months. Similar to other topics, reading the posts has been incredibly inspiring and useful. All the tips and great points made about them. Knowing that I have not been the only one. Seeing that the majority of the tips work in my life. Keeping being inspired to do better in my budgeting and saving. These are still the most important topics that I keep reading about, almost every day.

One may argue that after a while, new posts may not be as useful as the ones I have read at the beginning (where the learning curve was steeper). That is partially true – I can say that I now know the majority of the tips/experiences written about in the posts. However they are still useful – to remind myself about this important goal of mine. That is why I read the posts on these topics very frequently and with delight.

There are a number of other interesting tags that I follow, some of which include renovation, housekeeping, cancer, and DIY.

Knowing how dynamic is my interests and what a variety of topics the blogs I follow write about, I am curious and excited about the future tags I will follow, future topics I will learn about.

keep up the great work everyone 🙂

cheers

appreciation to fellow bloggers :)

I would like to thank all the fellow bloggers who are following me; it is currently more than 450 🙂 I never thought I would get that many people who would be interested in hearing what I have to say. From the bottom of my heart, thanks for being interested in my blog!

The same for those who take time to comment on my posts and reply to my comments. Each one of you have somehow enriched my thoughts with your support and kind and encouraging words that also hinted your wonderful characters – thanks a lot 🙂

A final word to those blogs that I follow: I want you to know I read your posts as my time permits and I always like a post only after I read it. I am constantly learning and expanding my vision, thanks to your experiences and writing. Thank you for being here and sharing your world.

cheers everyone 🙂

May your lives be full of beauties, hope, support, and love :)
May your lives be full of beauty, hope, support, and love, however bumpy and dry it may look 🙂 *I like this picture as the little boat looks so off, so away from where it is supposed to be, yet is so full of life…. 🙂

a world within a world

When I first opened this account, I had planned it to be work-related and had one or two post over many months. Many of my colleagues have blogs and they are happy to write and promote them for professional reasons. But I could never move my own.

Then something happened and I felt that I had things to say, things to share, things to put in writing. So I changed the theme and started to write poems and a little story-line. It went so, with spontaneous addition of other pages (such as question of the day, today’s crush) and before I knew it, I started to write about my thoughts and experiences as well. Recently I re-started with few poems and some fictional posts.

I never thought I would have such a blog, write these posts, or write poems or stories like this; I am sincerely surprised. I  cannot wait to see how it will evolve over time.

I am spending quite a bit of time everyday here, writing or reading. I enjoy both of them. I have come across many beautiful and interesting blogs, which I am happy to follow. I have also started to interact with some of you about your blogs or by responding to your comments. I was very hesitant at the beginning (for a long time actually), because of previous bad experiences with virtual interactions. So far all correspondence was respectful, genuine, supportive, understanding, or fun, which tells me that I am in fact very lucky 🙂

Some of you guys/ladies are really great, smart, and lovely which makes me feel very excited to get to know you, and very grateful for;  thank you all 🙂

In addition to the changes in the types of my posts and the way I interact with the others here, I also change the topics I read about or the blogs I follow (I usually keep frequent posters and those who are insightful, kind, and nice; so the turn-over is actually not too much). That is in fact exciting as I love reading and learning about new topics. Last month I read mostly about gardening and budgeting/saving for example. I am now not that interested in gardening, but my interest in budgeting and saving continues. I also have a new interest, which is DIY. I know that anytime I am curious about something or need informal info, I can get it here.

To me this blog-space is a world within a world; a life within a life.

joy journal – May 24, 2015

1. A truly exciting and blissful day; it was sunny (although windy too) and energizing. I am grateful for every moment of this day.

2. I am grateful for not sleeping in late. I got up around 9 am, which is great. At first it did not feel so exciting, since the breakfast place does not open till 10am, but eventually I made it to 10 am and then the rest of the day was long and full of things to do!

3. I am grateful for the breakfast and the chats I have had with the staff. They are young bright people who are just going thru school and part-time job at the same time. It is kind of difficult; I remember my own years. but they seem to do both just well and are incredibly nice people to interact with.

4. I am grateful for shopping and getting shocked by the receipt!! It was not too much, but then it was.. I liked the fact that I reacted negatively to spending that much today. This tells me that I am really in the “conscious spending” mode and I am very happy with that. I am extra grateful that I left one item prior to checking out.

5. I am grateful for buying the glues my sister wanted for so long. I am also grateful for the shea butter hand cream I bought for myself; it smells good and feels very smooth. It was above my budget but I bought it anyways to treat myself. Conscious spending does not mean I need to constrain myself to the degree that I cannot enjoy my own money, especially for something that is good for my body.

6. I am grateful for the healthy lunch and dinner I have had today. yes I have eaten bread too (which I am trying to cut), but at least I have also eaten veggies, either raw or canned.

7. I am grateful for spending time in the yard, getting mesmerized and fascinated by the young trees, checking the seeded areas for growth, and removing some dandelion out. I could sit whole day out, breathing fresh air, listening to the trees and birds, and feeling the sun warming my bones. I am lucky I am to have a yard and I am very thankful for that.

8. I am grateful for walking twice today; first while going to the store to purchase stuff and then in the afternoon. The nice thing about nice weather is the energy and wish to be outside it gives. I could not help myself but put the shoes on and went out. walked to another grocery store maybe 10 min away. Since last year I have not been there – it is a relatively small store but the fresh produce is fantastic. I did only buy a pack of chocolate-biscuit I was craving for and enjoyed it while walking back to home.

9. I am grateful for having an upbeat, relaxing, and energizing weekend. This weekend was truly a blessing. My mood is high and I am looking forward to a productive work week ahead of me.

10. I am grateful for TV and the movies I have watched this weekend.

11. I am grateful for having the love in my heart to give to the trees, the plants, and anything else in my yard.

12. I am grateful for speaking with my family and my best friend today; their support is always useful, sincere, and strong.

13. I am grateful for deciding to take a longer route starting yesterday to walk from office to home in the afternoon. The change of scenery should feel good and it will give my body a better exercise.

14. I am grateful for all the food I have at home. My pantry and fridge has more than enough food to let me go through the week.

15. I am grateful for the blogs I have read today – I learn so much about gardening, budgeting, and crafting. Learning and curiosity are the sources of excitement 🙂

16. I am grateful for being relaxed, positive, and grateful today.

random thoughts

What a beautiful day; it rained a little bit here and there but it was warm and very enjoyable day.

I attended a whole-day long work-related workshop today; it is great that we have such gatherings every once a while. It is truly a great opportunity to learn from others, form collaborations, and have lively discussions. I was not sorry that I was away from the office today.

I kept my eating (free and usually unhealthy) food to minimum, which was very pleasing. Also rather than drinking 5-6 cups of coffee, I had tea half of the time. It still pumped my heart rate up a little bit, but I guess tea is a lot better than coffee for a drink.

I had a speech for 30 minutes. Prior to the talk I was a little bit nervous, but it went really well. Two of my team members also attended the talk, which was nice. I tried to credit their excellent work as much as I could. I am sure they enjoyed it and I wish to continue to do so. In all my talks I have pics and names of my team members when I talk about their work. I kept this practice since the beginning, which I am keen to continue. I may be a tough boss (and I am..), but when comes to giving credit I do it well. Knowing that I hardly have seen this kind of practice in other boss’ presentations, I am very happy with my choice.

After the workshop we had a social in a nearby place, which was somehow quite in terms of attendance. But it gave me a chance to connect with some of my colleagues at my work place as well as some of the visiting professional from other provinces. Having a casual and comfortable chat among us (all opinionated and ambitious professionals) is an amazing experience. I am glad I did attend this event and I am glad I did take time to do so.

My work and my colleagues amaze me in so many different levels 🙂

Do you know what that makes me?

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You would not imagine the role you have in my inner world M.

Did you know I found strength in you? Knowing that there you are, my heart fills with love, affection, and care? Do you know what that makes me? A happy, excited, and strong person, it does.

Did you know I found a chance to know myself better because of you? Knowing that I can love truly? Do you know what that makes me? A self-appreciating and powerful person, it does.

Did you know I found the courage to dream with you? Knowing that my life can be better, a lot better with love? Do you know what that makes me? A brave person, it does.

Did you know I found a better understanding of how selfish I was, almost as much as you were? Knowing that I had lost our mere chance because of this? Do you know what that makes me? A maturing soul, it does.

Did you know I love you more now because of all these things I have learnt about myself?

Knowing that I have profoundly changed?

Do you know what that makes me?

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Kate’s short story – XXXI

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