life is interesting

I have done something interesting and applied for a job in Europe 🙂

I have not thought about it, I have not overly thought about my cover letter, I just did it.

If I had waited, I would probably not have done this application. I am proud of myself because this excites me in so many ways.

First, it is a completely different but related career path that I have been interested in for many years. I have done some volunteer work in that area and it is one of my favorite  activities.

Second, it is in Europe, which is closer to my family! It was almost impossible for me to move there for a similar career to what I have right now. With this application, I am feeling free! I just saw that I have had other options in life, which I was not aware of just yesterday….

Third, this is a significant step for me. I believe this is the 4th time I made an application for a job in the last 10 years (since I have got my job here). The last two applications happened in the last 11 months…. I am not surprised considering the toxicity around my job and job place. But I am quite excited to see that I am taking steps… This is so interesting… And exciting!

The truth is I do not know if I could leave here so soon and move to another place: I have a house, work-place commitments to my team members, and I love Canada. I feel a part of it, safe, and well cared for here. It would be difficult to leave Canada. Oh, Canada!

Yet, if my life and my mental health will be better, and if it is going to be close to my family, I will take it!


Hope is a magnificent thing.

Also magnificent is the people and circumstances that piss and under-appreciate me. Thanks to them, I come to realize other opportunities.

Hardships grows and extends us – that is for sure.



a proud moment

After almost 2 months of senseless spending and lack of frugality in my life, today I made a pre-payment for my mortgage (only $404, but better than nothing, is it not?). I saved this money by my humble daily savings in the last 2 months. I am feeling extremely happy, proud, and excited about this 🙂 

Sometimes planning is not good enough and one must take steps to move. This was an important step that I hope will help me come back to my frugal self.

I plan to pay another $6,600 till the end of December. This will mean that I will have paid an extra ~10K as pre-payment this year. Of course I still need to make these payments…. So before I get excited for no real reason, I must keep my eye on this prize and find the motivation that I so much needed to move even more forward 🙂

relief – re; house problem

I am excited that I took the steps to have a second opinion on the crack on one of my walls.

I called the insurance company first; my first time dealing with an insurance claim and they were helpful. I am very proud of myself that I could make this call and get information. I do have a tendency to delay things where I am not even sure how to describe. I have been meaning to call the insurance company since last weekend. I am glad I finally made it. I now have more information and if I have to make other calls, I know I can make it easier.

the insurance company hooked me up with a contractor company they work with. Within an hour the contractor and I met at my house. He did an in detail examination. First thing I have learnt that crawl spaces are useful as they help us to inspect the foundations. I do not have one… Second, my problem right now is only a cosmetic problem, so I will continue to watch over the crack and other places in my house. Third, the worst thing that can happen is a significant repair requiring tens of thousand dollars, which is depressing… Fourth, there is no danger or indication of a a dangerous situation yet, so I can have peace of mind until all gets way worse.

It may not be all good news, but knowing that despite my shakiness I am taking the necessary steps. It may cost me eventually some tens of thousands… That is the scary part but there are somethings in life we cannot control and this is one of them… But until it happens, I will remain calm and remind myself that the best thing I can do is to be knowledgeable and attentive. At least I did not ignore. At least I have taken steps to understand. The rest I hope I will be able to go through if something wrong happens.

That is a great relief.

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