While I have had a relaxing weekend, the stress of work has already caught up with me. Since yesterday I have been running, running, running again. I can feel all the stress hormones rushing in my veins and my emotions fluctuating. I feel like emotionally unstable, and sometimes, just sometimes, I realize that I must do things differently.
When you work with others and dependent on their commitment, time, and efforts, you know that this kind of work takes more time and there are times that you need to “trust” that the other party will do their absolute best to finish the work with a level of quality required from you. You also know that this is not an optimistic expectation, because in reality a lot of things can go wrong. So, how do we get the best of the other parties? How do we involve them more, and make them do the things on time? Especially if they are your colleagues, or even worse, your superiors?
I do not have the answer to this. If you have any opinions, please leave me a comment. I will seriously consider it.
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I continue to work mostly at home this week, even though I am back to work (i.e. not vacation time). I do not know whether this is good or bad, but it seems to be working for me. I just wished I could do better. But then, who would not?
One of my colleagues could not believe today that I took vacation time to actually work. Is that so weird? I concur that it is weird, but at least please respect my wishes – I too know to just do things out of work and enjoy my life. But with the work-related congestion I have at my hand, finishing the work is going to give me peace of mind. I am so looking forward to the mornings when I wake up feeling good about life, not stressed by the work I must do. My quality of life is important.
Carbs too.
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Among all of these chaotic circumstances, there has been good things as well. First of, I managed to revive my sourdough from its dried flakes. Objectively though it is questionable that whatever is growing in the starter has come from my original starter (I have been feeding it the last four days); it is quite possible that this is in fact a new culture that I captured from flour, water, or air. It is so hard to know. I want to believe, though it is the original one so that I can brag about my sourdough starter lasting for years and years…What a childish but important wish for me. Unfortunately none of us will know the truth. I wish I could do DNA test or something to figure out :)))
Another good news is that with each wash, my highlights are getting more lighter and I am capable of seeing some light patches in my hair here and there. I am still pissed about the highlights not being strong enough, but considering it has been only 5 days since I have got my hair done, I am hopeful that in two weeks or so, I may get better-looking and stronger highlights. I want to believe…..
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Also, I finally chopped down the little trees shooting out of the trim of my house. Somebody told me that they can grow and start damaging the house/foundation. What!! I do not need that. I feel weird cutting little trees, one because they are little, and second, they are trees. Trees are magical and absolutely wonderful. Why do they show up where they do not belong? I made a mental note to plant one to my yard to ask forgiveness from nature.
Last, since I am not eating well during this stressful time, I seem to be losing weight. I am okay with that as long as I eat at least a vegetable and fruit at least once during the day. However, it is strange that even planning for one of my weekly pleasures, grocery shopping, is not making me excited.
The situation, my friends, is that dire.
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Life as I interpret it 
As 911 emergency supervisor, I’m sure the work for me was much different than yours. What worked the best for me was holding dispatchers accountable for their responsibilities (paperwork and documentation) must most of all I tried to keep a positive environment for morale. I had a boss that said you shouldn’t have to praise employees for doing their job. I disagreed. Just an affirmative comment or a good job worked wonders in keeping my crew working the hard thankless job. Also, they knew that I expected nothing from them that I wasn’t willing to do myself!
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that sounds like an amazing approach. for such a serious and demanding job I am sure that was the best. in our case we all are trying to reach a common goal, there are expectations from my team members but our work is very complex and requires my attention all the time. otherwise I am responsible for the mistakes, some of which can have serious consequences (not as serious as your past job, but still….) I admit that I am also a little bit of a control freak, based on the past experience; I feel like the world will collapse if I do not give my 150% all the time to the work I and my team members do.. it is stressful 🙂 I like what you boss said re; not praising the team members for doing their jobs. I somehow agree with this, because if they cannot do it right or complete it on time, and then if I praise them, this gives them a false confidence. I also do not like to correct them all the time, because it is demoralizing.. this is a dilemma at best :)))))
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Well, I sent you a novel link response but I must have deleted it instead of sending it so suffice to say, I understand your perspective.
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that is good enough for me! 🙂
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I understand control freak!!! I understand what you are saying about praise…I suppose the best way to explain it is if a dispatcher has a multiple car pile up where they are acting as liaison between several,different agencies, local police, sheriff and state patrol, ambulance, fire units and trying to assist with communication while landing a medivac helicopter on site, and if the job is done well…the job they are highly trained for…an atta girl or atta boy for a job well done was appreciated and Infelt assisted with their decompression….but as far as completely data entry, documentation, etc that was just expected and required….so I see the how those are handled differently. On a separate thought….leaks coming out of our White House. You may not hear all of the BS that is going on with our leadership, but I’m pretty confident that we’re employees treated with respect and decent as human beings, there would be a much higher loyalty toward this president…but that’s a whole different ball game. Wow…sorry for the novel length response along with the thought tangent 😀
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I totally get doing your work at home to get something accomplished! Glad you are feeling a little more productive!!
Your hair will be fine. If nothing else, you now know what you like (other than red!)
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